Delegation and devotion

So I finally realized that I can not carry a whole organization all by my self. 

I may be insanely devoted and pretty glad to sit my ass down and study rulebooks, comparing merchendice pricings, planning the next practice, going through the financials etc for hours on end. But with working full days, practicing, taking care of my bunnies and trying to have a life with my partner I realized I've had about zero time with/for myself. 

Some nights I've been so stressed out that I haven't been able to sleep at all. My body has been exhausted but my mind was unable to slow down. 

So I decided to put a stop to it before I crash completely. And with the new year coming up I promised myself to care for myself more. More sleep, more good food, more fun, more relaxing - more me-time.

And since the league is slowly but steadily growing and I start to see that derby-fire in more girls eyes, I finally felt comfortable enought to hand some stuff over (yeah I know, I'm a control-freak). I still hold on to the stuff that I love; coaching, managing and  merch/pr, but I've got backup. And the stuff I was genuinely bad at is now in capable hands. It feels hella good!

 At the meeting this tuesday we also finally decided to add another day of skate practice to our schedule! If all goes well we might be adding a third in a moth or two. Then I won't have to skate around the apartment when I get sudden cravings at 1 am! (Yeah, no, I'll probably still be doing that...)

I am also really happy about FINALLY having the coin drop when it comes to my quick turns/stops and turning to skating backwards. I found out that I am really stable when skating sideways with my feet out like a duck. I can almost go a whole lap. Who knew, eh? With that down, turning around is a piece of cake! I also realized I can almost do "the hunter"*. It's pure showoff, but it's fun! I fall on my ass, giggle, fall on Cherry and we both laugh or I manage to slam the ground so hard all the girls notice and laugh. 

I feel so proud. My little idea, my little spontanious spark is now a living organism. A league full of girls with their own strengths and their own energy. Watching them skate 'til their faces go blue makes me feel like a proud moma! It's gotta be this way it feels. <3 It's all love, baby, DerbyLove!

* - Sitting all the way down with my ass on my skates and pointing one leg in front of me kinda like a gun.