Not being able to skate full out is really getting me down. On the upside we've gotten a bunch of new freshies that all show a lot of talent and have evolved really fast in the 2-3 practices they've been around.
There's also been some stupid drama at work, I've been ill with the flu and missed out on a lot of quality time with friends and family due to it. I did get a bit of a breather going to Berlin with Niklas for three days now this past Tuesday top Thursday. Berlin is such a cosy city with lots of vegan places to stuff your face. AND a brick and mortar derby shop, with a supernice shopkeeper to boot!
Niklas bought some skate´s now so he'll be able to come to practice and get the basic skills to be a jam ref and so that we can skate together this summer! That makes me a happy camper!
But then there's the facts that I work Monday thru Friday, and then I have my weekends booked up so tights with league related stuff that I get 0 time to myself. And if I don't have derbythings to do I try to catch up on all the other things I need to get done (cleaning, vet visits, laundry, kissing my boyfriend, eating more than once per day) that I don't really get any time to wind down anyways.
I love derby, I really do, I just don't love the constant wear it's taking out on me to try and get the league boutready and able to function properly on all levels. People show up to practice very spottily, some flake out during practice, don't listen, roll their eyes at drills and rather than taking them seriously and trying to really perfect their skills they coast and ignore me. And think I don't notice.
I notice.
And the constant questioning and whining and drama between skaters (not really involving me, sure, but trying to get people to work together as a team under those conditions is a hassle) is really making me think about an offer I got to move and join another league.
When I got the offer I was like "awh, that's so sweet, but No". These days it's more along the lines of "hmmn would it be possible to get a nice apartment there... would I like it...?"
From what I've heard from other league founders, coaches and captains this is a fairly common problem. People get worn out, overworked and exhausted. The one think that keeps kicking people in the butt seems to be the actual skating. Lacing up, pushing themselves, working out... skating. And I can't really do that now.
I guess that's why I feel so extremely worn and contemplative now. And why I am ranting.
I need a hug, a thank you. Some appreciation for the hard work and hours of networking I put in (that is genuine).
Bleh.
I hope the bout tomorrow will boost my spirits.
CCR, London Rollergirls, Slaughter Daughters and STRD! Lots of gameplay to enjoy and soak up!
DERBY! <3
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